Nervous

I am now 3 days away from meeting Baby Boy #3. Which by the way, I cannot wait to tell everyone his name! It will be nice to refer to him as his real name and not Baby. But anyways...I am getting very anxious and nervous. In a way it has been nice to have been surprised when my water broke and we just went to the hospital to deliver. This is so different now that I'm so close to my scheduled date. I have started to feel like I'm not prepared which I know that I am. All the baby needs is a place to sleep and a few clothes and blankets. All of which are ready. The anticipation of the c-section itself has me nervous. I have survived 2 c-sections and know this will be no different. I'm dreading the recovery process of it. I know I don't have a natural birth to compare it to but a c-section is definitely not a walk in the park. Seeing that it was just 13 months ago that I went through it, the pain is still fresh in my mind. The intense burn you feel when you stand up for the first time, the pain in the incision from moving into a different position in bed, and the pain after they take the epidural out - 24 hours later.

It is all worth it in the end as there truly is nothing like holding your newborn for the first time and looking into each other's eyes. It is amazing how there is that instant connection between a mom and her new baby. I'm excited to see Carter and Preston meet Baby for the first time. I'm excited to see every one's expression when we announce the name. I'm excited to find out how big Baby is. And I'm most excited to have our family of five complete.

I can't believe how I can have all of these emotions all at the same time - nervous, scared, excited, anxious, happy, sad... It will all come together though in just three short days!

38 Week Dr. Appointment - The Final One

I had my 38 week doctor appointment today. This was my final appointment which is a little hard to believe. I have never made it to my final appointment! I'm shocked that this kid is so content in there and doesn't want to come out. My blood pressure was back down to normal 110/80 and my weight, well, lets just say I'm going to be thankful to start losing the weight instead of gaining. I am measuring at 39 weeks and Dr. Jacoby thinks that Baby will weigh approximately 7-8 pounds. Now, that is just from feeling him from the outside and the size of my uterus so there is really no telling. I feel like I have a 15 pound baby in there!! Dr. Jacoby said everything looks great and he will see me early Monday morning unless something happens before then.

Second Trip to L&D

I have now been pregnant longer than I have my previous two pregnancies. I do not know how people go past their due dates, sometimes two weeks, and don't go crazy. I am 38 weeks today and already starting to go crazy! Yesterday afternoon I started having severe pelvic pressure. It hurt to walk, sit, stand...just the slightest movement made it feel like Baby was going to come out. The pain was so intense that I couldn't even feel my contractions. I decided to go to sleep and see how the night went. I was up and down all night long. I think I only got a total of 3 or 4 hours of sleep. I thought about waking John up around 4 but decided we were so close to the daytime that I would wait until the morning and call my doctor. I spoke to the on-call doctor around 9 am this morning and we decided it would be best to go ahead and get checked out. We got to the hospital around 11:30...even though I thought I had been prepared and bags packed, it still took us a long time to get out of the house with two kids in tow. We went fully packed in case we ended up staying. So, that included getting both kids packed and ready to spend the week at Grandma's and staying a full day at the hospital. I got hooked up to the monitors and got settled in. Dr. Reisler (the on-call doctor) came by almost immediately and checked and I wasn't dialated at all. This actually surprised me considering all of the pressure I had been feeling. My contractions were still considered irritability. After a couple of hours later I was discharged to go home and continue on with my life for the next week. I will either be back next Monday morning or sooner if my water breaks or if I go into true labor. You would think would my third I would know a little bit more of what to expect but I don't. My body has never actually gone into labor and I'm not sure what it feels like. I have had my water break twice and labor induced once but not even on my own.

The nurse I had today was great. She joked that maybe Baby could hear the chaos going on with having Carter and Preston and has decided to just stay put. I honestly wouldn't doubt it. It's ironic...you would think that each pregnancy would get shorter instead of longer but I always tend to be in the small percentages and this is just another one of those times. At least Baby is doing great and healthy. I couldn't ask for anything more.

37 Week Belly Picture

I'm not really sure how much bigger I can get. Just when I didn't think I could get more stretch marks! I'm also sporting some awesome cankles (sp?). I hate swelling up but at least it waited until the last month.

37 Week Doctor Appointment

I went to Dr. Jacoby today for my 37 week check up. My blood pressure was slightly higher today and was 128/90. It is still in the "normal" range but it is just on the higher side of normal. I didn't even pay attention to the weight gain...at this point I don't really care. I am 37 weeks and 2 days and measuring right at 38 weeks. I figure I'm doing really good!

I talked to him about possible moving my c-section up a week to next week. However, he wouldn't agree to it. I think if I had begged he might have said yes but he said no. He participated in a study at the hospital that he used to practice at (where I delivered Carter) where they looked at the admissions into their NICU. He said that there was a significant increase in admissions at 38 weeks versus 39 weeks. Before this study he had no problems delivering at 38 weeks as this is considered full term but he just isn't comfortable doing it anymore, unless there are medical reasons. Preston was born at 37 weeks and 6 days and was healthy as could be but I certainly don't want to take any risks. I mean, seriously, I only have 12 more days until I get to meet my little guy. I think if I have waited this long I can wait another 12 days. How do women go to 42 weeks???

So, I plan on taking advantage these next 12 days of enjoying being a family of 4. John and I are about to be outnumbered which will be an adjustment. Everyone has some major adjustments in our household coming up! Hopefully, the transition is a smooth one.

Seriously, Think Before You Speak

We went to the grocery store tonight. I used to love going by myself and actually still do. It is just much easier to have John there with me right now. I can't bend all the way over to get things out of the cart...that is actually pretty embarrassing! :)

One of the workers came up to me and started asking me questions about my pregnancy. She was super nice and had a 3 month old. We talked about how young Preston is and etc. We then went our separate ways. She then ended up sacking our groceries and she started talking to me again about the pregnancy. As many of you know, I'm done with this pregnancy but I put on a happy face and talked to her. She then tells me, "You know, I got big with my daughter but I don't think I ever got that big and to think you still have 2 more weeks left." Oh my gosh!! I couldn't even believe my ears. How do you respond to that?? I know she didn't mean anything by it but wow!

I'm Ready

For the first time in this pregnancy I am actually ready for Baby Boy #3 to be born. I posted last week that I was sad for it to be coming to an end and part of me is still sad. However, I am ready for him to be here. My whole pregnancy I have thought about how it is much easier to take care of him inside of me than outside while taking care of Carter and Preston. While this is true, it is becoming increasingly more difficult to take care of Carter and Preston while being this pregnant. I mean, I'm huge!!! I didn't think it was possible for me to have more stretch marks but they have somehow managed to multiply this week. It is hard for me to even get off the couch because my tummy is so big. Carter is so sweet and "helps" me get up. It is hard for me to change Preston's diaper because the edge of the dresser cuts into my tummy and if I stand further away then I can't reach him. It is hard to pick Preston up off the floor. It is just plain hard to do anything right now. I'm exhausted beyond belief but have a hard time sleeping. Even while taking Ambien, I am still waking several times through out the night and not really getting rest. My hips are killing me. I am just plain, flat out miserable right now. I know I'm whining but I'm done. I am very thankful that I have made it now to almost 37 weeks and my goal has been to make it to September 1st and it looks like that will happen. This coming Monday will be 37 weeks and only 2 more short weeks until I deliver.

So, all of this to say, I am so ready to meet Baby #3!!! I am ready to hold him and see what he looks like. I am ready to see how his big brothers react to him. I more than excited to see everyone's reaction to the name we have chosen. It is taking a lot of effort to keep it a secret because we are both so excited about sharing his name with everyone. It is a very special name and I know there will be a few tears of happiness when we announce.

36 Weeks

I am officially 36 weeks and going off the Procardia. The Procardia was to help calm contractions and I was told to stop at 36 weeks and if I go into labor then I go into labor. As it is exciting to know that the baby will be healthy if born right now, I really want him to stay in there as long as possible. I'm not too thrilled, though, about feeling all of the contractions coming back. I still had contractions on the Procardia but at least they were a little calmer. I now have 21 days until delivery day!!

Names

Why is choosing a name for a new baby so difficult? It is such a tough decision. This will be the name he will have for the rest of his life. We have had a name picked out for Baby #3 for a few months now and have both been very excited about it. We had told Carter so he would get used to it and even taught him to say "I don't know" when someone asked him what it is. Granted, it didn't work but we had fun practicing. John and I have referred to Baby by his name for a long time now and I know him as his name. I have already had things personalized that I have been keeping in hiding for fear someone would see them.

But last night a new name came into the picture, one that both me and John like and it would be a very special name to have. Yes, I have spent money on personalized things but that is a small price if this second name is meant to be his name for the rest of his life.

I have always liked to have names picked out early. We knew Carter's name by the time we found out he was a boy. Preston's name was a little harder and once we found out there had at one time been a Preston Manning in the family we immediately had made our decision. We have never had a name picked out, had our heart set on it and then thought of something else.

I really want it to be finalized before he is born. I really want the shock and aww of John going back to the waiting room and announcing, "[insert name] is here!" I want to fill out the birth certificate and social security card info the first time they come to my hospital room. I want him to have a name the second he meets the world for the first time.

35 Week Dr. Appointment

Another uneventful appointment. Gained another 5 pounds!!!! I think this is mostly water though because I am starting to swell up like a balloon. Hello kankles!!! :) Blood pressure was still 120/70 and still measuring two weeks ahead. Dr. Jacoby couldn't tell if Baby was still breech or head down. He could feel a round something at the top and bottom. As of our sono last week he was breech and I haven't felt him flip. The tech said it is unlikely that he will flip at this point since there is so little room.

We talked to him more about having my tubes tied. We know we want to do something permanently but just can't decide which one of us should do it. There is more that can go wrong further down the road with me, unlikely but it could still happen. But if we decide for John to go through it then it is a separate surgery and cost. Since, I am a c-section it just makes sense for me to get my tubes tied right then and there. Dr. Jacoby said in all of his years he hasn't seen any of the complications of a tubal - premenapause or excessive bleeding but the risk is there but very rare. He said the most common thing to happen is to get pregnant!! What??? That is what we are trying to prevent. He did say, however, that it would most likely be a tubal pregnancy and wouldn't be viable. So, I think we are leaning towards me getting my tubes tied but aren't 100% just yet.

I go off of my medication next Monday when I'm 36 weeks. He said that if I go into labor then everything will be fine by that point. I am hoping to make it to at least 37 weeks. That is my ultimate goal.

I don't go back for another 2 weeks and then it will be weekly appointments until I deliver. Still can't believe this is the end of it. It feels like a few weeks ago that we found out I was pregnant.

A Trip to L&D

A pregnancy just wouldn't be a pregnancy without an early trip to labor and delivery. My contractions have picked back up lately and I felt like I might be leaking amniotic fluid. I went to see Dr. Jacoby this morning and everything checked out fine. He even did a sono and my cervix is still measuring in the normal range, it is on the lower end of normal but still normal. My fluid levels were on the high side of normal, which is exactly what happened with Preston. At the end of my pregnancy with Preston, I had to completely try to cut out all sugar including fruit. He still was born at 38 weeks weighing 9 pounds. So, looks like I'm making another big baby. I am going to try even harder this time to keep my sugar intake lower. The outcome of what can happen with too much fluid is so much more of a reality to me now than it was last year. As I don't have diabetes or gestational diabetes, I still need to take care of myself to the best of my ability right now. I can sacrifice those yummy sugary foods and drinks for just a few weeks to help try to lower my fluid levels.

Anyways, so even though everything checked out okay, Dr. Jacoby still wanted to send me over to the hospital for monitoring and for them to do the ffn test. They can get the results back in an hour where as if I didn't go I would have had to wait until tomorrow. John was with me so he was in charge of the boys. The boys did GREAT! We were only there for 2 hours but that is a long time for a 3 and 1 year old. Heck, I was bored! The ffn test came back negative, the contractions were still rated as irritability and I was sent home. I was instructed to start taking the Procardia again religiously 3 times a day for the next two weeks. After 36 weeks, he wants me to stop and if I go into labor then I go into labor.

On our way out we went to the Newborn Admitting Nursery. I had heard they had gotten rid of it and sure enough they had. They now do everything - first bath, weigh and etc. - all in the room with the mom or in my case in the OR or recovery room. I don't think I really think that plan is all that great. I like the fact that the family gets to see the baby through the glass while they do all of that and they won't get that this time. They are able to come into the recovery room but I get the shakes so bad that I wasn't even able to hold Preston until I was in my post partum room. And I want to be the first one to hold him. I guess maybe they can come and look at him but not hold him? I just don't know.

We also stopped by the little gift shop, A Mother's Gift. I had never been in there and have always wanted to go in. I had one of the lactation consultants size and fit me for a nursing bra. I thought I knew the size but just wanted to make sure. I explained to her the problems I had with bras, I'm short and after two back to back babies, large chested. It is so extremely hard to find a bra that truly fits. She showed me one that I cannot wait to buy. It is on the pricey side but oh my gosh, it looks so comfy. I hope it is. She also explained to me that if you give birth at Plano Presby then you forever get 20% off their nursing bras. How awesome is that? The only downside is that they are inconveniently located in the hospital and the space is so tiny that I won't be able to go when I have the kids with me. I looked online after I got home and surprisingly, the hospital had the best prices. So, maybe I will make a trip up there in two weeks when both boys are in MDO.

Celebrating Baby Boy #3

My Aunt Vickie and cousin Brittany gave me a baby shower today to honor Baby #3. I was hesitant to have a shower since this is my third baby boy and only a year after Preston. I like the idea of celebrating each baby but didn't want people to think I was asking for gifts. However, they insisted and I gave in. I made sure to keep it small and only invited a few close friends, family and girls from my bible class at church.

I received a few gift cards to Target and Walmart, diapers and wipes, some essential bedding for a 2nd crib (mattress pad and sheet), and a new floppy (needed when you have 2 kiddos in high chairs at the same time). My other cousin, Brandi, also made me a few burp clothes that are super cute. Brittany made me two scrap books. One is for teddy bear pictures and another one is to mark the milestones of his first year. She did the same for Preston and I know she puts a lot of time, effort and love into it. Aunt Vickie gave me a new bear to take Baby's picture every month and the bear is huge! Both Carter and Preston have had a great time playing with the bear today.

I don't have any pictures yet but will post some after Brittany emails some over to me. They did such a great job and it was great to see Brittany's new house. She made cupcakes and had the best lemonade, which is one of my weaknesses right now. The day was a lot of fun and very much appreciated.

When Will Baby #3 Meet the World??

My sister-in-law found a website while she was pregnant with my niece and it is a fun game. It is a poll to guess the delivery date, how much he will weigh, how long he will be and what time he will be born. Anyone that reads my blog, please log onto the website and vote on when you think Baby #3 is going to make his grand entrance.



I had to edit this to add, that even though I am a scheduled c-section, both of my boys came early. Carter was 5 1/2 weeks early (due date 3/10/06 and born 2/4/06) and Preston was 2 weeks early (due date 8/17/08 and born 8/2/08). I, of course, am hoping that I make it to my scheduled date but just looking at the trend, my only assumption is that Baby #3 will be early as well. :)

33 Week Check Up

I had a very uneventful doctor's appointment with Dr. Jacoby today. I gained 3 lbs in the past 2 weeks but only 25 overall so I'm actually doing pretty good. My blood pressure was 120/74. The heartbeat was strong and he is still breech. I got all of the paperwork for the hospital. I have to be at the hospital at 5:30 AM on the 14th and then the c-section is scheduled for 7:30 AM. Man, that is super early!! I don't forsee me getting any sleep that night if I make it to my c-section date.

Less than 6 weeks away from September 14th!! So Baby #3 will for sure be here in less that 6 weeks! Crazy!!!

31 Week Doctor Appointment

I went today to see Dr. Jacoby for my 31 weeks appointment. From here on out I am going to start going every 2 weeks. How did that happen so quickly?? My blood pressure was 120/70 and I gained 4 pounds. I am now starting to measure big though. I measured at 33 weeks, so just two weeks over than what I am. I think this is when Preston started putting on the the pounds so it is probably in my best interest to start watching my sugar intake.

We also had an elective 3d/4d sono and it was pretty cool. Baby actually looks like Preston as far as we could tell. I asked the tech if these were pretty accurate as far as what they look like and she told me that she thinks all of the babies look alike. I laughed and said, "Well, why are we paying for this then? We should have just pulled up pictures on the internet and saved some money!" It was worth it though. He has some pretty chubby cheeks and a little cute nose! She tried to get a picture of one of his feet but as soon as she found one, he moved.

I also picked up the CBR cord blood kit. Now I just have to remember to take it to the hospital on delivery day! I think I'm going to start packing my bag and just go ahead and throw it in. I can't believe it's time for me to start thinking about packing my bag!!!!

We scheduled the c-section date. It is scheduled for September 17th which is a Thursday. Dr. Jacoby isn't on call during any of the weekends in September so this way he will still be able to see me the day after Baby is born. If I stay in the hospital for the recommended 4 nights, that will put me going home on John's 30th birthday. I'm not sure how I feel about that. It is such a big birthday and I don't want to take that away from him. We didn't even think about that this afternoon so maybe we will change the date. I'm not really counting on making it that far anyways but we shall see.

Dr. Jacoby performed another fFn test and should hopefully know the results tomorrow. If it comes back negative, it will at least give me peace of mind for another two weeks. I want to keep him in there as long as possible, even though I'm starting to get super miserable. I know it is so much easier to take care of him in there then out here and I definitely don't want to go the NICU route again!

Live Life Abundantly

John and I watched a Will Smith movie, 7 Pounds, a couple of weeks ago. It was an oddly great movie. It had a great message but was presented in an odd way. It really made me think about how we treat people in our daily lives and truly made me want to go out and do some good deeds for others and live my life abundantly!


While, watching the movie, my friend, Dana posted a blog of one of her friends, titled Choices. It really sums up my life right now and probably the lives for a lot of stay at home mom's. I have really been struggling with the idea of a new baby coming into our lives. As excited as I am to meet this little boy, I am super scared!! I even mentioned to John last night, when am I ever going to get a shower taken?? It seems like I am letting Carter watch a lot more TV than I used to in order to get things done around the house and even then I don't even feel like I am keeping up with the house and the things that need to be kept up with.


The Choices blog reminded me that I need to forget about the load of dishes that are in the dishwasher for just a little bit and take a little more time to play with my kids. I need to brave the heat for just 5-10 minutes and go outside and blow bubbles. I need to live abundantly!! I want to remember all of these days with my kids as great days and days of laughter and playtime and not days of being stressed out and worried. My kids aren't going to remember that the kitchen was a little dirty or their clothes weren't put away as soon as they were dry. But they will remember their mommy playing games with them and having fun with them.


Carter, Preston, and Baby, I promise from this day to live my days for you boys and play with you more and give you the mommy you so much deserve! I love all three of you so very much and I hope you will always know that!!

Pregnancy Update

So this pregnancy is proving to be a lot more for my body to handle than my previous pregnancies. I think the main reason is my body didn't have time to completely heal before getting pregnant again. I believe doctors recommend you wait at least one year after a c-section to get pregnant again. Well, my body only had a whopping four months to heal before going through it again. I have been on medication to help calm contractions/cramping for a couple of months now and it was helping. I had stopped taking it as everything was calm and the medicine caused me to have terrible headaches.

This past weekend I started having even worse contractions that were completely different than what I had been experiencing. It's strange, they induced contractions after my water broke with Carter and I know they hurt. They hurt bad enough that I had an epidural but I can't for the life of me remember exactly what they felt like. I think that is God's way of making sure you have more children. So, this past weekend I didn't know what to think. I knew that if I called my doctor he would tell me to go to the hospital and get checked out. That isn't so easy to do when you have a 3 year old and an 11 month old asleep at 10:30 at night. It probably wasn't the smartest decision but nonetheless I decided to just take my medicine and go to bed. They never got better but they never got worse. I think part of me wasn't that concerned just because after twenty something hours of labor with Carter I never dilated past 3 cm and my body just wouldn't go into active labor.

I called my doctor's nurse yesterday morning and she scheduled me to go in at 2:30 that afternoon. One of my friends let me drop Carter off at her house and he played with her three kids while I went to the doctor. So much easier to take one kiddo to the doctor than two! My mom met me at the doctor's office since John had meetings he couldn't get out of. He did an internal exam and everything seemed to be fine. I wasn't dilating and my cervix was still very high. He also did a Fetal fibronectin test which indicates if you are likely to go into labor within the next two weeks.

Dr. Jacoby called me this afternoon with the results. Normally his nurse calls me when it is good news so imagine my surprise when he called me himself. My heart sank when I heard him on the other end of the phone. But, luckily it was good news. The fFN test came back negative which means I am good for at least another two weeks. He had me keep my scheduled appointment for July 21st when I will be 31 weeks. Hopefully everything remains uneventful until then!

27 Week Doctor Appointment

I had my 27 week doctor appointment today and it went great! We had a sono done to check on the cyst that had developed on Baby's brain. It had completely resolved on it's own like Dr. Jacoby said it would. We couldn't be more happy and grateful. We had a lot of people praying for us and are very grateful for all of the thoughts and prayers. She went ahead and took measurements of the baby and he is measuring right on track. I am currently 27 weeks and 2 days and he measured 27 weeks 3 days. He is approximately 2 pounds and 6 ounces and in the 49th percentile. He is now transverse and laying on his back with his head and arms and legs up in my ribs. It is definitely making it uncomfortable for me! I had gained 7 more pounds. I couldn't believe I had gained that much in a matter of 4 weeks but the nurse said it should all even out as I have only gained 20 pounds all together and it's about average for being 27 weeks. I think we need to lay off the daily snow cones though! :) My blood pressure was 110/70 . I also had blood drawn for the glucose test. I should find out early next week what the results are. I hope I passed and don't have to go on a diabetic diet. I haven't had gestational diabetes with either Carter nor Preston so I will be a little shocked if it shows I do have it. I have been more tired lately so I am assuming my iron levels are low and need to start supplementing but should hear about that next week too. We talked about getting my tubes tied and we still haven't fully decided on if we want to do that. It will only take an extra five minutes in the operating room while I'm having my c-section but it is just so final. I know I don't want to have any more kids but totally eliminating the option makes me a little sad. There are days that I am 100% sure I want my tubes tied and then days that I'm only 75% sure. I know I shouldn't do it unless I am absolutely 100% sure so we have a couple of more months to talk about it. We also talked about when to schedule my c-section. He said I could pick any day the week of September 14th. I don't really care which day and I don't think I will make it that far anyways. Preston didn't make it to his scheduled date so I'm not too worried. My goal is to make it to September. If I make it to September then I will be happy. It is going to be one long hot summer though. It was supposed to get up to 100 degrees today. I'm not sure if it did but it is miserably hot!!

Here is a picture of his profile.

I asked her to confirm that he is still a boy and he is definitely all boy!! :)

26 Weeks

I have been bad at taking belly pics this pregnancy. I really like having them so I can remember how big I got and how fast. I had John take some pics this past weekend and Carter loves to participate as well! :) I'm already getting pretty big but know I will get a lot bigger before it's all over!

Mixed Emotions *Warning - Hormonal Moment :)

Lately, I have been having very mixed emotions when it comes to baby #3. Don't get me wrong, I couldn't be more excited to welcome another little boy into our family. He is going to have 2 awesome big brothers and is going to fit right in.

My sadness I feel is more towards what this means for Preston. I had 2 1/2 whole years with Carter. I got to enjoy his growing and he got to enjoy me and John as well. I kinda feel like Preston is going to get the short end of the stick. I know he won't know any different but I know. I feel like part of me is rushing him to grow up a little because I just don't know if I can handle a 3 1/2 year old and two babies. I really want him to be walking by the time #3 is born which looks like he will be doing anyways on his own but I hate actually wanting it to happen that quickly. I feel like I'm going to miss out on spending more one on one time with him. This past year, we have had two days a week for 5 hours each of those two days it was just me and him. Being a stay at home mom has allowed me to really get to know him and I cherish every moment. I can't thank John enough for allowing me to have the privilege of staying home with our kids. I have been on both ends of the spectrum. I worked for 2 years of Carter's life and sent him to daycare every day. Granted he learned a ton and is a little social butterfly now because of it but I now see the benefit of really getting to know your child when you stay at home. I didn't know Carter as well as I know Preston. I never did know what his cries meant and I do with Preston. It makes me sad to think that I couldn't give that to Carter. But now, I'm going to be taking away a little from Preston. I have learned to balance my time with two boys. I will take Carter with me sometimes on the weekends to run errands. It is so much fun when it's just the two of us. And I have one on one time with Preston all the time. My fear is that with a newborn, how will that affect my attention on my other kids. Carter is such a big helper and understands a lot. Preston, on the other hand, won't be able to understand it at all. Carter is anticipating another baby coming into our family. He knows what that means and what that entails. Preston doesn't. How is he going to understand that Mommy won't be able to hold him all the time? Will he allow someone else to comfort him when I can't? I have never spent a night away from Preston. What will he think when I'm in the hospital for 4 days? He is such a momma's boy and I can't begin to imagine what his adjustment to a little brother is going to be like.

If you made it this far then I applaud you! :) lol I think I really needed to get all of my current feelings out there. I know it will all work out in the end and a lot of people have kids close in age. I think this next year is going to be a very tough one for everyone in our little family but I do look forward to all of the fun we are going to have!